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I was looking at some pictures on facebook, when all of a sudden I was looking at a picture of Jeff Grey. Immediately I burst into tears. It's been awhile since I've cried about him, even though I think about him all the time...Looked on his myspace account, read everything people have posted, and cried harder...

It's been a little over 6 months, and it still doesn't seem real... And of course thinking about Jeff made me think about Kenny, and the tears kept coming. Three years...

And now I just feel off, in this sad place that I can't really get away from, memories flowing...even though in general things are really good right now--got a job on Friday, went to this awesome club (Ohm) Saturday night w/Jo, went for brunch with Jenny Farber & Marty Wasserman today (cutest couple ever, btw), going to see Idan Raichel on Tuesday night...

But then thoughts of Jeff or thoughts of Kenny sneak into my mind, and I can't get rid of the sadness, can't stop wishing that I had more time with them, or that I had used my time with them better...I don't know, it doesn't really get easier, does it? I mean, you get passed the point of crying non-stop, of having this constant nauseous feeling...but then the fact that you're NOT sad, makes you sad, and the emotions slap you and knock the wind out of you and leaving you feeling drained...