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Friday, July 21, 2006

 
Trying to hold it together, to get back in the routine of camp, but finding it so hard... Keep thinking about Jeff...I'd been meaning to e-mail him all summer, to see how Kennedy was going, how life was going...and I keep kicking myself for having missed that opportunity, for not having kept in touch better, for not remembering when I saw him last... After Kenny died someone made a comment about how there were all these people at his funeral that he just wasn't friends with, that he probably would have laughed at if he had heard them talking about him. And I keep thinking about that now. I considered Jeff a friend, despite the lack of recent communication, but did he feel the same way? And does it even matter? I don't know how to stop crying, how to stop thinking about it, how to start feeling okay. My brain hurts, my heart hurts...

On a separate note, Dad's going to Israel after Shabbas for a few days. I'm so proud of him for that, and obviously a little jealous too...

Shabbat Shalom.

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